A titanium God.

We have all done it. We have all compared ourselves to other people. We compete to be at there level. The power of suggestion is BIG people. We see someone with a new Michael Kors purse or a nice car or trendy clothes, and we WANT IN! We want to be noticed. We want to stand out.

I know personally that I have always been bad at wanting to “keep up with the Jones” when in reality this is and never will be possible because I don’t have the Jones’s income, friends. I can’t hang. I have friends that have better paying jobs than me and we go out and they have the nicest of everything on and I would completely be lying if I said I was never jealous.

But what if, just stick with me hear while I wildly imagine a “what if” world…

What if, we shifted this jealousy? What if it was shifted to be jealous for God’s approval? Jealous for his love and what if all the effort we spend on trying to impress others with our fancy clothes, cars, houses, dinners, 60′ flat screens, crown molding, expensive purses, 4,000 sq. foot houses….all of it people. What IF instead of impressing everyone with all of these things, we made them jealous over a love, a love for Jesus, a love for the man that sacrificed his for ours. What if we annoyed people to point of change because we gave so much of our time, efforts and hearts to the impoverished of the world. What if instead of always be a show stopper because we are perfectly pieced together with our perfect hair style, clothes and heels….we were show stoppers because we had mud on our faces with dirty shirts and filthy torn shoes because we have spent day in and day out serving orphans at a dirty orphanage with no electricity, running water or beds. It’s easier to ignore an orphan before you know one. Well, I know a few..Image

Here’s one. This sweet boy brings tears to my eyes. Because he is one of the happiest boys I know and seriously gives the best hugs in all of East Africa! He has learning disabilities and they won’t allow him to attend school because of it. What if we were filthy because we sat with him all day teaching him because he isn’t allowed in schools? What if instead of fighting over who has the best..everything. We fought over who gets to spend the day with him.

I will always be grateful for Africa. It not only showed me a God that did so much for me, but a God that I so desperately wanted to DO FOR! Finishing up “Freefall to Fly” by Rebekah Lyons and this fit so perfectly.

“Special people change us in a instant. Forcing us to ask the deeper questions. They inspire us to be better. They bring meaning to our lives in ways that make perfect sense in our hearts.”

I get it, it’s hard to fathom a God that is out of sight sometimes. It’s hard to think of wiring, working and weaving this life on earth in a christian like way to earn us a spot with the King. But when your at the bottom of the barrel and you can’t see the light. When we are in our darkest places and cannot find a way out or in “flight or fight” mode. When you find out a loved one just died. When your on your way to the E.R. for a dear friend. When your marriage is in shambles and barely hanging on. When you have financial struggles and are losing everything. When you have a loved one fighting in the war… who do you turn to? who do make a deal with? who do cry out to? who do you pray to in pure desperation of the light? 99.9% of the Time it’s to God. So you do believe, but its just not always easy to follow through daily…

What a relief to know that God not only exists but he listens. He hears our cries and please and deal making. He responds by liberating us.

I remember when I was in a previous (bad) relationship..I felt stuck in. One night I fell to the floor crying my heart out. Full on sob on the floor knees on the ground, face in the carpet, periodically looking at the ceiling BEGGING God to please not let this be my forever. I felt so stuck. Months later I called it off, scared to death (after investing 5 years) and MARRIED my dream man a year later. The man that walks with me through it all and will be the father to our sweet adopted child! a man that is fathering the fatherless.

So you see sometimes all he want’s us to do is physically show him that we DO need him. God is full of compassion and healing, but he won’t force Himself on us. He wants to see that we get it, we can’t do it without him. and simply ask for his help.

Driving home today, listening to Pandora..Titanium came on and all I could think was how God is titanium. He is untouchable. We can push against him, shoot bullets to keep him away but he won’t fall. We can put a shield over our hearts to keep him out, out of fear possibly being let down. He will never waiver. We can criticize but all of your bullets ricochet.

in case you haven’t heard it:

You shout it out,
But I can’t hear a word you say
I’m talking loud not saying much
I’m criticized but all your bullets ricochet
You shoot me down, but I get up

[Chorus:]
I’m bulletproof, nothing to lose
Fire away, fire away
Ricochet, you take your aim
Fire away, fire away
You shoot me down but I won’t fall
I am titanium
You shoot me down but I won’t fall
I am titanium

[Sia:]
Cut me down
But it’s you who’ll have further to fall
Ghost town and haunted love
Raise your voice, sticks and stones may break my bones
I’m talking loud not saying much

[Chorus:]
I’m bulletproof, nothing to lose
Fire away, fire away
Ricochet, you take your aim
Fire away, fire away
You shoot me down but I won’t fall
I am titanium
You shoot me down but I won’t fall
I am titanium
I am titanium
I am titanium

[Sia:]
Stone-hard, machine gun
Firing at the ones who run
Stone-hard as bulletproof glass

[Chorus:]
You shoot me down but I won’t fall
I am titanium
You shoot me down but I won’t fall
I am titanium
You shoot me down but I won’t fall
I am titanium
You shoot me down but I won’t fall
I am titanium
I am titanium

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J4pGQ2wrQxE  <—-COPY and PASTE this and listen to this girl sing this song. It can move a soul..straight to Jesus.

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so you see..When no one else is there, who will you turn to? The one who has always been there..
love,
CZ
and if you want to invest in our family and help bring our baby home…here is the paypal link to donate toward our adoption!!
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